by Jonny | Jan 25, 2012 | Updates
I’m becoming very lazy when it comes to blogging.
I have two websites which operate on the basis of blog type posts and they take a long time to make. I have to research about a subject, find reliable sources and then create an article out of them; either debating pro’s and con’s etc. Especially so for my Armoured Vehicle website. I’ve also been really lazy with my FactsonSpace website. Although my armoured vehicle website has seen increases in traffic, I haven’t really done anything for my FactsonSpace site, other than this week, I created a forum for it here. However that isn’t finished yet.
I need to look at ways of advertising my FactsonSpace website since I believe that is the real money maker out of all my websites. Considering its future potential and that space is a limitless subject which is highly interesting. But I’m no expert, so perhaps when I get my cheque from Google I’ll hire a writer to help me out there. I can see that website going big if directed well; which at current I’m not doing too well at.
by Jonny | Jan 15, 2012 | Updates
Ever since my girlfriend left Taiwan to South Korea, I’ve felt lonely. It just doesn’t feel the same, and for me, it feels as if there is something missing.
I talk to my girlfriend for around one hour per day on Skype, and hopefully in the future more often since she is getting a smart-phone and she’ll be able to use Skype on there.
She’ll likely kill me, for posting these pictures, however she doesn’t look at my blog, or doesn’t know too much about blogging, so the likelihood of her seeing these are nil.
However if she did see these photo’s, then she’d have to come to Taiwan to kill me, so I’ll lose but also win.
httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFkzRNyygfk
I dread of what tomorrow brings. Usually after class she’d wait for me, ring me in the morning, planned what we could do on that day with me and generally was there for me. She’d come round and we would hug & kiss for several hours in my room.
I had someone’s hand to hold, my hands are now feeling the emptiness that was there previous. Hopefully she’ll come visit me as I won’t be able to go abroad as I’ll be doing my military service in Taiwan. Although after I have promised her to go to South Korea next year. I hope it is a promise I can keep by then.
by Jonny | Oct 27, 2011 | Updates
The film ‘Real Steel’ is a Hollywood film however a pretty good one for what my opinion is worth to anyone.
Having just watched it with a friend, I am glad to say that we both enjoyed it.
If they make a sequel to the film, I would definitely go and watch it. I’m very interested in these types of films.
I’ve also been eyeing up another film called “In Time”, although I didn’t enjoy Justin Timberlake’s performance in “Friends with Benefits”, “In Time” seems to be more science fiction as opposed to romance which is essentially what “Friends with Benefits” is.
Back to Real Steel, essentially the film is set in the future where instead of people boxing you have robots boxing each other out inside a ring. These robots are manually controlled however there are robots that are also automated and can do their own boxing moves to counter-act their opponents. What occurs is that this American guy was once a boxer himself however switched to boxing with robots instead as time moved on… I guess. He loses most of his battles and always ends up at square one. (i.e. no money and having large debts making huge bets on him winning his own games)
However he in fact has a kid who’s mother dies and he has to decide whether he takes custody however makes a back-door deal as the kids auntie wants to take custody arguing that the father is not fit to be a father. Though the auntie’s husband is quite rich and the father bargains a deal worth $100,000 to hand over custody of the kid to the auntie. Though the kid appears to be very smart (and cute according to my friend :P) and sees this back door deal being made however has no choice but to go through with it.
The kid then helps the father come back as a champion however at first the father loses a few boxing matches and again ends up at square one. Then the kid finds a robot in a scrap yard and manages to somehow fix it with the help of the fathers girlfriend! They manage to rise to fame with what was called a ‘heap of junk’ and they match up against the best robot in the robot fighting league!
But do they win or does their robot become mince meat?
I won’t give away the entire story! But it was definitely worth the watch!
httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ei5l3r1dV4I
p.s. I hate the WordPress editor! Had to manually include “ ” tags.
by Jonny | Oct 17, 2011 | Updates
It is October and my birthday is very soon. I will turn 20 however the thought of turning 20 with no real highlight in my life is kind of scary. When I was younger I thought of my future as if it wasn't a problem though clearly there are going to be problems. I always thought I could get a job of which I could appreciate. But now I'm just studying Chinese and failing hard at that. I just wish there was a history degree at Feng-Chia University that was taught in English, now that would be something I'd sign up for. Or even if it was purely computer programming taught in English, that would be as equally awesome.
But that isn't the case. I just hope after or even before I turn 20, something good happens. – Perhaps if I suddenly increase in my ability in Chinese or at least play catch up with everyone else. I mean I'm finding things tough right now, no doubt about it. I just hope things change for the better. Now that I know when I have to join the military (Or I roughly know), it has certainly given me more certainty in my life. I wonder what happens when I come out? What will my situation be like? Would my Chinese have progressed to levels I would essentially be satisfied with? I have a long time to study Chinese though I'd rather learn it quickly and in the best way possible. Although it seems I'll have to progress slowly with this language, which is kind of depressing.
I already feel old, even though I know I am not. 🙁
by personal | Jun 20, 2011 | Opinion
This is probably a post I regret or come back on in a few years and probably look at and ridicule myself for this.
But would it not be so much easier to just to have not been alive or just to be dead. I mean, I don't know, I am not enjoying life too much right now. I should really be enjoying it. Who else gets the chance to go to other countries, speak to and make friends with foreign people, learn a new language in University or experience things which you would never have if you stayed in your original country. (For me the UK)
The future
Is life really worth living? I just wish I could find out by going into the future. If my life was pretty bad, I think I would have to end it before I could go through anymore suffering. If you knew what your life was like in the future you could ask whether it is still worth living for, if the future is bad then you know just know it isn't. – Perhaps you can change it, but if you can't what's the point? I mean not to be totally negative, but if my life was really nice and I had a beautiful family, then for me, it would be worth living for. Or if I found out I had a kid or kids then for me it would be worth living. As I would want to do my absolute best for them and make sure they did not grow up the same way as I did. I would have got them into education early and made sure they were learning from the start and I would have treated them like no other. But if that wasn't the case, and I was just purely a bum on the streets and that is the way I died, I don't think I would go on living.
Since the future is uncertain and the many variables that we change when we make decisions, it kind of is worth living for just to see "what happens next?". I mean I have been depressed and at a lot of times suicidal since I was 14, but throughout the years I have come the realization that finding out through life what will happen in the future is worth living for. You might find someone happy, someone who you connect with or something that just purely makes your life happy and worth living for. I think suicide is more importantly a dis-service to your potential future-self which of course is yourself. So I don't think that route should be explored, even if your situation is the worst. You just need to have that certain motivation. I have felt that motivation before when I was excited to learn Chinese. Even though I have lost that and I probably will gain it back once I gain confidence in my learning abilities, I have no doubt that life in the future is a possibility of which it could turn out quite well. In this world you purely just have to make something of yourself. "Don't get left behind…" my teacher told me in class today and she is exactly right.
Maybe life sucks right now and maybe you just don't feel right. I think everyone should give themselves a real chance at their potential and that means trying to the highest of your ability even if you are depressed, upset or suicidal. Just do what you think feels right which will change yourself. Do something rash and out of the ordinary. Scream in the park and let your voice be heard. In fact I might just go do that tomorrow when I go for a run. People have all this energy and power stored inside them, and that to me is potential and people can use that for the betterment of themselves. So never give up. It has been 6 years since I first was suicidal. I have not had the best experience in life that I could have had, pretty much life has sucked up to now. But I'm still going on. I may falter at times, but I'm still going and moving.
