by personal | Jun 21, 2011 | Updates
It turns out I was just pleasing the wife's husbands bosses 12 year old son which was kind of boring. I made friends with him for sure, but I wasn't looking to make friends with a 12 year old but to get a job. To my surprise she took me to an Italian restaurant then to a Hong Kong style restaurant. I tried discussing her husbands business or her business (A joint business between them) but that never really got anywhere.
I don't think I was going for an interview but just to make friends with their son(s). Their other 19 year old son seemed pretty cool. But purely he just seemed to be the guy living the life since he has a well-off family. I mean he seemed like a nice guy and everything, but from the looks of it, he had no actual worries or no financial problems. I won't dishonor him by saying bad things about him, as he genuinely seemed like a pretty cool 19 year old. I guess I am more grown up, I feel that I am 25 or something even though I wish I could feel my own age. He liked to go out clubbing and stuff like that. I don't mind that too, but just moderately.
So I never had an interview. At the end of the day she came back to my parents apartment. I think I stayed with her son for over 10 hours. We played on their Nintendo Cube. We played some really graphically outdated games in comparison to what I am used to. But whatever the case, I think I had a spark of fun. But I kind of got a headache over the whole situation. I was expected and anticipating a job interview. The thing is I don't have any actual real skills. I wouldn't mind being a secretary as I can touch type and I am competent with computers. But where I fault is if they ask if I can help with the programming of software. I didn't quite get into all that even though I would have liked to.
So she came round my parents apartment with myself and her younger son, and my mother had a discussion about the so called job. Apparently it is happening tomorrow now since the husband who is the boss just came back from Japan. So now I have to be nervous again for the second time. Luckily I have my mother with me. But really I have no real specialist skill other than touch typing and being competent with computers like I said. Hell — this kind of makes me feel rather useless.
Whatever the case, I will go in with this job and see how it goes. According to my mother I am guaranteed a job. My exit strategy if things go wrong is to just become a Taiwanese citizen through my mother then join the army for 12 months with the required military conscription and see how that goes. Obviously I would rather this job if it is good pay, to which I don't know yet. But I would kind of like to join the army. I exercise every single day now and I think the army would help me get much more fit and would help me cut down to the right shape and toned figure.
Peace out.
by personal | Jun 21, 2011 | Updates
I have my job interview in 2 hours or so and I’m right now at home just doubting myself in every way. I mean this company that I have an interview for, well, is a software company.
So I was thinking just to console myself to list all the skills I do have, which I can bring up, though apparently some workers there can speak decent enough English, however, I’m not sure whether speaking Mandarin is an absolute requirement or at what level. So, I thought I’d list the skills I have and that I could probably use to benefit the company:
- I am a hard worker, I won’t be late to work. This is attributed to the fact that I did work delivering papers everyday at 6 am in the morning for 4 years.
- I can touch type and I am very fluent with how the web works with marketing. (AdSense, AdWords, Yahoo Advertising, MSN AdCenter etc etc)
- I can create websites with the use of blogs and design logos which will match those websites.
- I can speak, write and type in fluent English. Though these might already be attributes which most hold in this office where I might be working in the future.
- I can talk on the phone if I am given enough information, and I can probably sell something pretty damn well if need be it.
- I have a grasp of internet and the way it works. I can script in HTML/CSS and I’m learning Python. I’m also good at managing websites.
The horrible thing is the job description that I know so far is just “computer” according to my mother who I told to inquire about when she was talking to her friend, whose husband owns the business. I’m just terrified that I am going to walk into an office and then be questioned whether I can do this or that, with myself saying “I probably couldn’t do that…” if he is looking for specialised skills, which I may not have. I am already at an all time low with my learning Chinese, so another rejection of sorts would kind of finish me — I’m not sure what I would do in that case. I believe I have a disorder called social anxiety, which means I am constantly thinking about others and my own opinion about myself and worried about those opinions especially if they are bad.
But then again, I have had to console myself by saying, what is the worst that can happen? I get rejected, I just move on. But the thing is, this is my big break. If this is a decent job which I don’t mind doing for most of my life, then hallelujah, I have find something which I will finally enjoy and make money while doing so.
So am I scared to death? Yes I am.
In an hour and a half, I will have to ring the bosses wife as she will pick me up and take me to the office, which I’ve seen (On Google Maps) and it looks pretty decent. They have an office and a factory right next to each other. Even if I got a factory job just putting components together, I think I would be pretty much satisfied if the pay was any good.
Hopefully I can make friends with the bosses son, if I do that, I’m pretty much assured a job without any problems; I think. Whatever the case, apparently this is as a favour from the bosses wife to my mum. – As I’ve been told that when the bosses wife was younger, she was poor and like my mum, she gave money to her and took care of bosses wife and her brothers and sisters. – Which may have been the trigger somewhat to their success in making a company. So this is sort of like a “payback” if I’m allowed to describe it as that.
So hopefully it goes well. If it doesn’t, I will continue with life, learning Mandarin and trying to live life day by day and just try to gain some new experiences around this country. I really want to go to Kenting… so, who knows?
Peace out.
by personal | Jun 20, 2011 | Updates
Tomorrow I might be getting a job with a friend of my mothers who’s husband owns a business which manufacturers software for cars to check their health. I don’t believe it is just software they make, but they also make tools which connect to your car to which you can plug in via USB into your computer to run tests.
I’m not sure exactly what type of job I am being offered, hopefully it is one with good pay. This would also change my future dramatically. My other option to become a citizen of Taiwan would have been to join the Taiwanese army to complete military conscription. I have always wanted to experience joining the military, but my family are really restrictive when it comes to that. They would rather I work and make decent pay and not get involved. I’m also looking out for my future, maybe I will have this job for a long time and I might become something from it. The company operates in Taiwan, the U.S., Japan and several other countries, so this company isn’t small and there are many prospects of further up the ladder jobs within the company. The fact that my mother is near enough best friends with the wife, makes this job quite secure hopefully.
I am just worried it won’t be a job that I am unable to do or a job that I will be good at. I mean if I am good at something I won’t mind doing it and my employer probably won’t fire me if I do it well. Whereas if I am useless at the job, I probably won’t last long. I also have to sort out getting a work permit, which hopefully won’t be too much of a problem and again hopefully they will know the steps and give me the right documents to apply for a permit.
While I am doing this I am still hoping to learn Chinese, albeit sucking at learning Chinese and kind of losing motivation with learning the language. I am just hoping that Chinese won’t be a requirement at this place as I couldn’t save my own life with the language if I needed to.
Though for me the perfect job would be as a model. I don’t particularly think I am good looking, but others say I am good looking and other people I have met so far want to introduce me to other women. Just staring into a camera and earning money would be pretty awesome. But I don’t mind going the corporate way of earning money if the job is good and the pay is at least decent. If the pay was pretty decent, I think I would get my own place in this country and start living life finally as an adult living by myself and just purely secure and self-dependent as opposed to being dependent on my parents. – I guess this is what I am looking for.
As for the Chinese and me being rubbish at it, well I will give it a go, I won’t give up now. I think I just need to practice at home more often rather than go on my computer all the time which is probably the reason others are a head of me. Though I have been practicing. But it just seems when we learn something new in class, everyone is very adaptive to learning and more importantly remembering what was said while I kind of lag behind there. I just need to find something I love doing and something I want to do.
by personal | Jun 18, 2011 | Updates
I made some new friends who contacted me through e-mail when I posted an ad on Tealit.com. 🙂 I got quite a few people contacting me who wanted to either just be friends or to help me learn Chinese. I urgently need help with Chinese. Plus these guys know other people I can made friends with, who I can chill with and just be friends with. The guy I did make friends with took me with his friend to a Japanese restaurant. The food was really nice, except for the the Sashimi and Wusabi. I don’t like spice and it wasn’t just the spice or whatever the taste that was in those raw fish.
The food was great and they were nice people to talk to. They taught me how to say rice, which is said as “fun”. 😛 That will be quite easy to remember. To also say pork meat, you say it as “jewpie”. Haha.
It was fun and hopefully if or when I move onto the campus, I will be able to chill out with him and his friends, since my current “friends” at this university aren’t that active or aren’t that exciting. I don’t know but they don’t ask me if I want to go out or do stuff, so hopefully I’ve found friend who is actively wanting a good friend. (If that makes sense)
I had good fun with them. I have never been on a bike (Motor-bike or Scooter) so this was my first time and I was scared sh*tless. Every turn he made I would scream in fear of falling off or whenever he sped up, it frightened me a little. Okay, if you asked him, he would probably say I was screaming like a little girl. I kind of was, but hey it was my first time and those types of vehicles you need to get used to before you can like it. Or to put it another way, it felt like a roller coaster, it was fun but scary. But after a while you don’t mind it anymore and you overcome that fear.
It was great fun and a good excuse to go out rather than sit in-doors all day.
On another great note, I am also running around the park now, as opposed to the running track. The park is around 4 times the size of the running track, so I am hoping to do well. I could only do 4 runs around the park, where with the running track I can continuously go on running around 17 times without stopping. But the park is more of a challenge, it is much larger and the ground is harder. I’m hoping by the end of next week that I will be able to continuously run around 10 times without stopping. It is a stretch and I would say that is around 15 miles running in total.
I am hoping to do that everyday. It should increase my fitness level and tone myself up quite a bit. I am also going to be taking up swimming as I want a nice looking body when I visit Kenting, Taiwan. – Which has beaches that look absolutely fantastic and beautiful with (lots of girls) lots of nice blue water and I am also hoping to take up surfing! 🙂
by personal | Jun 6, 2011 | Updates
Ok. This is a very odd and perhaps funny story.
So I was doing my daily exercise and I stopped to rest after continually running around this running track in my local park. I had a drink of nice freezing cold water in the 31 degree heat and then I saw this guy coming up to me, who looked young, but he was starring directly at me.
Now I don’t believe in god, but if there is something out there, is this your idea of a sick freaking joke? 😀
Ok, so I’m cool with the guy. He asks me where I’m from. I look foreign, so I thought, maybe he is just being nice or looking for a friend. But then he starts touching my hand and calling me handsome. Then he starts touching my head and my knee.
I say to him that I’m not gay but I don’t have a problem with gays and he persistent on touching me. I was flattered even though he was a dude, that he called me handsome. I don’t get that much and lets just say it was nice. (Would have been cooler though if it was a super-hot girl doing this though)
Ok, I tell him all this and ask him a few questions, then things just get weird. He keeps trying to touch me, but as I’m not violent and since he had no hostile intentions I didn’t hurt him. So I just moved away. Then I said I had to leave. He then FOLLOWS ME, and I ask him where he lives, he points at a direction and I say I live in the opposite direction. Then I say “bye” just to get rid of him.
Don’t get me wrong, I have no problem with gay people, but when you start touching me and I’m expressing that I’m not fucking liking it. You back the fuck off. So I said earlier that it was getting weird. He was asking if he could touch my body or under my t-shirt. I said no, I am not gay and then left it at that, but he kept asking and I gave the same answer. Then he said “do you want to play a game?”. I said what game is it you want to play? Then this guy pointed at his doo daaa which was the point where I was totally freaked out. Once I saw him go, I went back to do some more running. Luckily I shook him off, but fuck me that was the creepiest encounter I have ever had in my life. 😀
Hopefully I won’t ever meet this guy again. I felt like I was being molested by a man. I was close to getting angry, but I let myself be peaceful since the park is peaceful. But if I see him again and he touches me I will first tell him to fuck off and if he doesn’t I will either run away or beat him until he gets the point. Again I have no problem with gay people, just stay the hell away from me if you are going to touch me. Now if it was a girl that would have been another story… if she was hot well then… who knows what could have happened LOL!
by personal | Jun 4, 2011 | Updates
I am on target with my weight. I currently weigh 93kg. 2 weeks ago I weighed 96 kg, so I have I lost 3kg which equates to around 6.6 lbs. My target mark is to weigh in at 85kg and according to my BMI I would be well within my weight bracket and I would be considered "normal weight" which means not underweight nor overweight.
I have been getting much fitter over the 2 weeks I have been exercising and eating more healthily. For starters I eat pancakes every few days in the morning and an apple. I then just drink a lot of water. Then for lunch I have a salad bowl with spaghetti sprinkled with light amounts of cheese and other stuff. The tartar sauce (Or whatever sauce it is) makes the salad for me eatable, and makes it especially more delicious mixed in with the spaghetti.
Prior to eating lunch, I go out and do some runs around the track. I don't like to pace myself at my current level of fitness as I know I can do better. So I usually push myself to jog/run a little faster to get my heart pumping. But if I want to pace myself, I can go on for quite a long time without stopping. Whereas when I started 2 weeks ago, I couldn't even run around the running track once without being extremely tired. Today I paced myself and ran around the track over 15 times non-stop. I didn't run or job extremely fast like I used to, but like I said I just paced myself and I just kept going. I guess what motivated me was the fact that there were these two older people running around who looked around their 40's or late 40's. They were also doing well, considering the 30 degree heat, so I didn't want to stop until they did. In the end we actually all stopped at the same time. But I probably could have done more if they had kept going. 😀 I guess they were my motivation to keep going.
I'm just glad that I've lost 6.6 lbs which is nearly half a stone. So I'm quite proud of that. Though it seems like this is taking a long time, I'm eating all the healthy foods and making sure I get the right stuff to keep me going.
Considering that I am signing up to my universities gym, I hope to do some arm muscle exercises when I get there to increase the size of my arms. Then when I look nice enough I might take up swimming. Onwards we go! 🙂
