Feeling not too bad now…

It was not so long ago, I suf­fered greatly when I started learn­ing Man­darin (Chi­nese) and it caused me to lose inter­est. How­ever for some rea­son today, I gained a lot of inter­est in the lan­guage and I was also think­ing of learn­ing other lan­guages per­haps in the future. — Once I have grasped Man­darin to the extent which I believe is suf­fi­cient enough.

Right now, I don’t know why I feel bad.

It could be because I’m miss­ing my girl­friend, I’m scared of my future or for any amount of other rea­sons.  I just have this bad feel­ing inside of me.

I’ll be eat­ing with my friends tonight for din­ner, so hope­fully I’ll become more relaxed.

I just wish things could be more the way I wanted it in life and more in the direc­tion I want to go. It just feels as if what I’m doing now is get­ting me nowhere. God damn emotions.