I suffer greatly from anxiety. People can realise this however they don't see it as a condition. They just think I am too scared or if you want to go ghetto, they think I is pussy. But the the thing is anxiety is a huge problem for me. I wish I never had it and I wish I could overcome it. Which is why I think it is quite a good idea for me to go into the Taiwanese military. It will make me man up and overcome my worries. Or the other thing it could do is push me into a deeper hole. Though I don't mind congregating with other people and I think I would make a decent amount of friends if I did indeed join the army. – Even though the advice I have recieved is to not join, as for example I might be bullied since I don't know Chinese too well. Though as long as I do what everyone else is doing, I think I will be fine and I may need a little extra help.
To kind of ensure that my langauge capabilites are at a reasonable level, I am now taking one on one classes. It costs around $600NT per hour. But I am only going to do one hour per week. The teacher is very nice and she speaks English. Though she has stated it isn't a good idea to learn via translating from Chinese to English. It is better to think about what the character or said word means as opposed to translation from English to Chinese; as said.
I hope these extra classes or the extra learning will help me improve. I recently read a book on A.D.D, I really have all symtoms, but I don't want to go to a doctor since it will be too expensive in my opinion. I just want the medicine.
I just hate being the guy that forgets. I hope my Chinese improves significantly, I feel like a failure at the moment.
