(Short answer: I don’t know) In 10 years time I will be 30 years old. That kind of scares me, as 10 years sure is a long time, but I want to know what I will amount to by that time. It kind of scares me that I will be in the same situation as I am now and that I haven’t progressed forward. If possible I would like to be married before at least 30 years old.
I would love to have kids however would only have kids if I was in the right position to have kids. For example I had a decent and secure job and had my own place that I was living in. Of course there are other factors as to whether or not I would have the time, in my opinion that would be required to take care of a child.
I would bring my child up in the best possible way, learning from my mistakes and ensuring he/she doesn’t make any big mistakes. (Such as studying hard for a bright future) I think that if I could successfully raise a child (So that my child would understand common decency) I would be satisfied with my life. But the first step is getting into that position.
But I just don’t want to stand still. I feel maybe or perhaps I am standing still at the moment. I just want to launch forward. In today’s society, success is deemed on how much money you have or how much you earn. With money you can do almost everything. Sure it may not help your personality, but hey, if you already have a good personality mixed with lots of money, then life will be easy and I think life would be pretty damn fun. It would be how you use the money that really matters. I guess if I had a child I was use it all on that child to ensure they had a good and healthy life; without spoiling him/her.
On Friday, I went to Hong Kong since my family visiting VISA expired in Taiwan. So I had to leave the country and re-enter to obtain a VISA exempt stamp on my passport. However soon enough, I am hoping this month, I will become Taiwanese, since I can claim Taiwanese citizenship since my mother is Taiwanese. However this entails the fact that I have to join the Taiwanese military after I become Taiwanese. I have no problem with this, aside from the fact I cannot speak good enough Chinese in order to fit in. (From my perspective) Though, I feel Taiwanese people are very nice people so hopefully I will be able to fit in and make friends. (If anything… I seem to have this knack of being able to make good friends)
It seems I have slightly gone off course with my ramblings. So talking about staying still and where I’d be in 10 years… is a huge worry. I so badly want a decent future, but sometimes I think about it and fear that I have no future. Or I think about where my future is going to be?
If anything I would like to be earning money online. That would be a dream. Just make several posts on a couple of my websites and that is my job that I can earn money from. People are doing that today, I would like to be one of those people. I hope to be one day. But lets just see what happens – I guess.
