Although I really want to learn Mandarin I'm finding great difficulties in grasping the language. Or I find great difficulties in understanding in what is being taught by my teacher. I try to translate what she is saying into English but always seem to fail. There are many differences when it comes to translating and those differences can impact an entire sentences' wording or understanding. – It is also time consuming. I need to get out of the mode of translating and I need to start thinking about what characters when combined together mean. Otherwise I'll be in a whole lot of trouble when it comes to next semester. Although I will be re-taking the same level.
I'm just dissapointed with myself. I used to be the highest in my college class for computer programming. As for Mandarin-Chinese, I'm the lowest and it feels like shit to be honest. I talked to my friend who also suffers from anxiety and Adult-attenton Deficit Disorder and he said you have to take it at your own pace. While I stopped taking Ritalin I feel I have slipped back into my unfocused mode. I really can't focus on the language anymore. I need those tablets in order to be able to study. Otherwise I find myself drifting elsewhere after 5 minutes of trying to write down the characters and remember them.
Tomorrow I shall be recieving that medicine, but not before I go to class which starts in the morning. So I will struggle. However that goes to say I probably or likely will still struggle when on the medicine, although it will help me progress and be more upfront. *sigh*
