It is October and my birthday is very soon. I will turn 20 however the thought of turning 20 with no real highlight in my life is kind of scary. When I was younger I thought of my future as if it wasn't a problem though clearly there are going to be problems. I always thought I could get a job of which I could appreciate. But now I'm just studying Chinese and failing hard at that. I just wish there was a history degree at Feng-Chia University that was taught in English, now that would be something I'd sign up for. Or even if it was purely computer programming taught in English, that would be as equally awesome.
But that isn't the case. I just hope after or even before I turn 20, something good happens. – Perhaps if I suddenly increase in my ability in Chinese or at least play catch up with everyone else. I mean I'm finding things tough right now, no doubt about it. I just hope things change for the better. Now that I know when I have to join the military (Or I roughly know), it has certainly given me more certainty in my life. I wonder what happens when I come out? What will my situation be like? Would my Chinese have progressed to levels I would essentially be satisfied with? I have a long time to study Chinese though I'd rather learn it quickly and in the best way possible. Although it seems I'll have to progress slowly with this language, which is kind of depressing.
I already feel old, even though I know I am not. 🙁
